For reasons I can't go into now it has been a challenging few weeks and many of those closest to me will tell you that for the last few days I've been hanging on by a thread. But as usual when things go wrong for me I find that the following holds true:
1) When the chips are down you find out who your best friends are
2) Desperation breeds creativity (BTW, desperation also creates great outfits...I always find fabulous new ways to put items/accessories together when I have "nothing to wear" but I digress).
3) My borderline breakdowns are both rare and almost always short lived
4) It is impossible to be really depressed while seriously rocking out to old Guns N' Roses singles
5) I am, and always will be, a survivor.
In regards to the second item on my list I honestly feel that within the last two days I may have done some of the best writing in my life and I did it during a time when I wasn't even sure I was capable of pulling together a coherent thought. That in and of itself makes me feel pretty good about myself.
As for the first item...well the truth is I have some amazing friends. People all over this state have gone seriously out of their way to be there for me. From offering to take care of my child at the last minute, to buying me truly decadent handmade truffles to those who have done research on certain things for me and sent me helpful articles, to those who know me well enough and long enough to know exactly what to say to help me focus...I could just go on and on. And there is one person who is actually working against his own interests in order to be of help to me while asking for quite literally nothing in return. That kind of friendship and selflessness is kind of breathtaking.
So thanks to rule one, rule two and a lot of Guns N' Roses I can honestly say that I think my breakdown is over (see rule 3) and I will survive and possibly...make that probably thrive (see rule 5).
Currently I'm feeling very hopeful about the future. For those of you who have been so supportive and helpful to me during this time I really need to thank you and for those of you who I'm close to who have NO idea what I'm talking about I promise to catch you up and please know that I didn't purposely exclude you from my personal drama (because I just KNOW you're anxious to be part of all my personal dramas, right?). But I'm not going to be able to catch you up tonight...tonight I have to channel my dwindling desperation and write a kick-ass chapter for what I think will (with a lot of work) end up being a kick-ass book.
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